“We are as sick as our secrets, so I tell everything,” that’s what legendary actress, Jenifer Lewis, said about her addiction and mental health disorder in an interview. In fact, telling everything about the most deepest, darkest stages of her life is exactly what she did in her tell-all memoir, “Mother of Black Hollywood.”
For decades, the former “black*ish” actress has either had us crackin’ up, or sparked some other type of emotion within us, by way of her scene-stealing performances on-screen.What most of us didn’t know, is that underneath all of the talent that Ms. Lewis possesses, she was struggling with serious battles behind closed doors. Battles that oftentimes put her in dangerous positions.
In her prior interview with People Magazine, Lewis discussed her decades-long battle with bipolar disorder, and her sex addiction. We commend Ms. Lewis for revealing her personal struggles to the world. Below are some excerpts from her interview.
Jenifer Lewis’s Struggles With Bipolar Disorder
After Jenifer therapist, Rachel, diagnosed her with bipolar disorder in her early 30’s, it took Jenifer four to five more years to actually agree to medication:
“Had she said, ‘you’re crazy,’ I would have agreed. I had been crazy all my life,” [Jenifer Lewis] writes. “When she said, ‘mental illness,’ I thought, ‘b—-, you crazy.’ I associated mental illness with people who couldn’t function, with straitjackets. I certainly knew what a depressive mood was, but this other ‘manic’ part was new. When Rachel explained the details, I gasped. You mean, there is a name for describing why I talk fast and walk fast and rage, create drama, and speed when I drive a car? Compulsive, you say? The doodling, the braiding and unbraiding my hair? The arguing with people and storming off ? Kicking s—, throwing s—? Yeah, okay, I guess all of that describes me.”
In response to her therapist suggesting medication, Jenifer resisted initially: “I am Jenifer MothaF—in’ Lewis, you aren’t going to turn me into a zombie.” But now she’s grateful that she has now decided to take the medication she needs:
“My responses were no longer as extreme. No matter what big issue or catastrophe loomed, I could say, ‘bring it’ and move forward. I was better able to listen and be present and aware of the world around me.”
Lewis Explains Her Sex Addiction
Jennier Lewis on how she didn’t develop her sex addiction until after moving to New York City and performing on Broadway:
“Performing on Broadway was a rush. The applause coming over the footlights was like a tsunami in slow motion. The crash after the show, I assure you, is just as intense. Let’s just say that post show I had a sort of habit of sex serving as a night cap. I was Cleopatra, Pam Grier, Marilyn Monroe, and Jezebel rolled into one. For me, nothing could extend the thrill of a standing ovation like great sex with a gorgeous guy.”
“Just as alcoholism isn’t really about the liquor, my addiction wasn’t really about the sex. It was about the unresolved psychological problems that caused me pain. Sex was simply my painkiller,” she writes.
In A Much Healthier Space Now
“I have peace of mind now; I’m in my skin,” Lewis tells People Magazine. “It took years to get to that place, but I did it—and I have a smile on my face.”
Jenifer Lewis is definitely helping many others who are secretly battling the same struggles…some of whom may not even realize they have an issue, until they read about Lewis’ past struggles.
If you or someone you know are suffering from bipolar disorder, or sex addiction, please know that you’re not alone. Here are links that can help:
Bipolar Disorder
National Alliance of Mental Illness
American Psychiatric Association
Sex Addiction
Sex Addicts Anonymous
Addiction-Treatment
